"…in Desperation."

(taken from the Demo “…in Verzweiflung.”, 1993)
(re-recorded on the Demo "Erinnerungen", 1995)
(re-released and re-recorded on the Double-CD "Das Relikt -Erinnerungen-", 2005)

"When I’m breathing – I must die
When I’m laughing – I should cry
When I’m happy – I’m sad
My only wish is to be dead

The love of live has ceased
I know this suffering days too long
Come along to rest with me
Now death is better than life

Love is the worst kind of pain!

It’s in my dreams and in my soul
Take the ruins of me
Lonely are my tears of pain
And I’m loved by their cause

Only time will tell
If I can break the spell
Back to the unreal world
I await this day

I await this day!!"

(Kai, written in love, in the year 1993)